8th November 2011

I'm not sure about the other stuff.

I only know that you're someone who I wanna spend life with.

I know I've been harsh.

I know I've been putting up lots of drama.

I know I've been trying to make you feel bad and guilty. 

I just want you to feel as much pain as I do.

Yet....

In the end, I'm the one who get hurt the most.

Because I hurt someone I love the most.

I neglected the possibility that you may be as hurt as I am after hurting me.

I neglected the fact that you have a heart too.

Thinking that you're only using me.

Thinking that you're totally being selfish and irresponsible.

Trying to get back on you,

I lost myself.

This isn't me at all.
But..how can I not feel that way after being hurt before?
Though you and him are different.

And now...it's time to make a decision.

Which side of you am I gonna believe?

I'll choose it and stick to it.

No more pointless drama.

No more hurtful and harsh words.

No more tears.

I believe I've met the right guy.

But it's just not the right timing to be my perfect guy.

Maybe in the future.

For now, I guess it's best to stay like that.

No promise that we'll really end up well.

But I hope we will.

After so much damage done, best to be alone.

Pick up the broken pieces and start to fix it back.

Hopefully there's no missing pieces though.
For now, just be with myself.
Just me and myself.

:)