Thursday, June 28, 2012


Have been such a super long time since I last visited this small world of mine.
I guess this is the only place that still remain some essence of who I really am.
Or maybe who I really want to be.

Anyway...
today...is my birthday.
Turning 19 years old. 
haha. old girl already.
Feeling somehow sad and down.
Maybe coz things haven't been going well for me and my parent isn't beside me today.
But...it's okay.
I can understand.
Things doesn't also go the way I want it to.
I believe that if all doors are closed, there will still be one window that's open.
I just haven't found that window.

Lots of things I wanna talk about here.
But I don't know where to start.

I only know that I miss the old Lansin a lot.
I hope to find her back soon.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

不是故意


我以为恶梦不会一直缠着我
我以为头痛闭上眼就痊愈了
我只听你爱听的歌
我只做你的朋友
我变得沉默伤心也不愿开口
我变了好多是否更靠近你呢
等一个固执的如果
如果你懂我为什么就够了
你别担心我不怕一个人站在雨里
除了你我找不到能快乐的意义
眼泪带给你的压力太清晰
我真的不是故意
不是故意让自己变得不再像自己
为了你拼命想拿一百分而努力
你却离我越来越远的距离
直到我失去你
真的不是故意


我真的不是故意。不是故意让自己变得不像自己。

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

4th June 2012

Hi Love!!!
hahaha. I finally have time to really update on my recent happenings.
Gonna be a long long post.
So enjoy!!! :D

Hmmm..where should I start?
Ok, lets start on my work then.
Last week didn't go Novotel for work coz need to go Shang Rila (aka Shang in short)
Miss the people at Novotel a lot.
Worked at Shang on Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
Apparently, there is this world summit going on there so the security is very tight.
Worked at the summit where people around me are either security guards, military personal or ministers/official.
Stress to the max.
The manager said that not even a small mistake is allowed. 
One very small mistake, and you'll be banned from working at the hotel.
Stress right?
But, oh well...5 star hotel, 5 star service standard.
Keep up to it or just get out.
hahaha.
Still, got to know new people there.
Note: New people. Not new friends.
Working in hotels... just imagine how complicated it can be at times.
Especially when I'm a girl somemore.
I count myself lucky for having better EQ. 
If not, I think I'll die very badly working in hotel service line.
But still!!! 
I get to know some nice people there.
Super friendly and outgoing Justina!
Love her character. Love her smile.
Knowing her made the unbearably tired day more bearable.
:D
Oh well, still...this is a job I'll hold on to.
At least for now.
Going back to Novotel to work this weekend.
YAY!!!!
Bet they miss me too. :P
hehehhehehe..

Moving on...
Finally met up with Nana and Niki after so long.
 NANA!!! Miss her damn lots!!!!

And Niki!
Super long never see her.
Time to meet up again soon~
Met up for lunch at Pizza Hut.
The fries there are really super nice.
Especially with their dipping sauce.
*drooling*
Beside the food, catching up with the girls feels great.
It's like going back to our JC life.
Ah...I miss JC life.
hahaha.
Can't believe I actually said that.
It's a pity that Lixing can't join us.
But I believe that we'll all meet up again one day. :D
Too bad I couldn't stay with them long coz I still gotta work that day.
:(

Anyway, after working for 3 days...
It's finally time to rest!!!
Hahaha.
Today is my first resting day.
What did I do?
SLEEP!!!!
Yes...I was deprived of sleep. 
Woke up at 9am and went for Mac breakfast with Mum and Bro.
Super long since we last ate breakfast at Mac together.
I'm a total pig.
Like seriously.
I ate a whole meal of Breakfast Delux meal!!!!
hahaha.
Oh well...you know...I've heavy workload. 
(That's the only way to make me less guilty for eating so much :P )
Went back home and continue sleeping till 1pm.
Woke up and went to Jcube with Mummy!
SHOPPING SPREE!!!!!
Omg, seriously, the Great Singapore Sale is really so awesome!
hahaha.
Brought 2 pair of heels at Payless.
One for Mummy and one for me.
30% off for the 2nd pair.
Heels with skinny jean.
Perfect match! 

Mine is the 2nd pair.
Usual price is $34.90.
After discount, it's just $24.43!!!!
Can you believe it?
Super worth the money.
And my mum's one is just like $36.90.
Beside that, I even brought a perfume.
Princesse Marina De Bourbon: Dynastie Mademoiselle
The bottle is so beautiful!!!!
Totally in love with it.
Love most of their products.
They even gave a miniature of the Marina Blue!!

Feels awesomely great that I brought my first branded perfume with my own hard earned money. :D

Beside shopping, I also treated Mummy good food again.
This time, at Chili's.

Mummy tried the Baby RIb Classic.

What else can I say...
It was bloody awesome.
Sweet sauce coated on the nicely cooked rib.
Nom nom nom...
And I had Shimp with corn cob.

Love it to the max.
The crumbs coated on the shrimp give the fresh shimps extra favour.
Sprinkled pinch of salt and black pepper plus some butter on the sweet corn..
Ahhhh!!!! 
Extraordinary!!!!
*Drooling again*

It was a bit expensive though.
But still, I think it's worth it.
hahaha.
Especially seeing mummy enjoying it so much.

Yup yup. 
So it's really a fun and awesome off day for me.
But...spend too much le.
No more shopping spree allowed this week!!!! 

Went out with almost zero make up today (except abit of eyeliner).
Coz have been wearing makeup almost everyday becoz of work.
Ah....
It feels super awesome to be able to spend my own money.
Treating Mummy nice food almost once every 2 weeks.
Going for a shopping spree after I've worked super hard.
Doing things that I love and want to.
Loving the people around me.
Experiencing the real working life yet maintaining a carefree lifestyle.
I go to work, enjoy it to the max even though things are shitty at times, earn money, spend it without worries and guilt.
If my appeal doesn't get through, I'll have around one year of break.
Study again!!!
But at the same time, enjoy my life to the max.
Come on, I'm just 18 years old, turning 19.
It's the best part of my entire life.
I'm not gonna let it go down to waste becoz of useless stuff.
Beside studying, I'll work, save up and travel!!!!
The most fulfilling thing is me having the ability to buy present for my mum and treating her nice food.
Even just topping up my mum's ezlink card with my own money makes me feel happy.
:D
Feel that I should use my own money to help Daddy and Mummy spend on things they couldn't bear to spend on for the past years becoz of us.
For example, Daddy and Mummy couldn't bear to spend money to go nicer restaurant for a meal coz they think it's too expensive. Now that I've the ability, I'll bring them to these restaurants.
It's a pity that Daddy is not in Singapore.
But when he comes back or when I visit him, I'll definitely treat him!
Most importantly, of coz, is making an effort to spend time with them.
Of coz, not forgetting my Bro who is also having a hard time at work.
Gonna think of sometime to cheer him up.
Love them to the max!
Always being so supportive.
Really love them lots! 
<3

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Not that simple after all....

Sigh sigh sigh....
Work isn't that simple as I thought.
Dealing with human sucks...
Initially I thought working in the hotel line won't be too complicated as long as I focus on my own stuff and do it right.
Apparently, it's not really that case.
Trying to make friends with everyone and anyone just so that your work life will be easier.
I call that mental torment?
But still, I'll stay on this job for a little longer.
In hope that things will turn out to be better.

Someone once told me, "Pretty ladies have to work double hard just to prove that they have both the looks and capability.If not,they are nothing."

So true.
This society isn't all about looks.
First impression does matters. 
But it won't last long.
This cruel reality...

oh well...
Everyone can work in the hotel line.
But not everyone can do well in it.
It isn't all about looks.
Man...this sucks...

Going back to Shangrila for work later.
Lets hope everything will go well.