24th November 2011

Failures.

No one likes it.

But we always learn best through failures.

Becoz it's so painful that you won't forget.

For me, I can accept failures.

I've failed many times in my life.

I accept failures but I don't let myself fail.

My parent are totally ok with me failing.

I believe no one in this world can life his or her entire life without failing.

So if my parent is okay with me failing and I can accept failure, then why am I being so hard on myself??

Becoz I believe that my life is more than just about me.

How can I stand other people insulting my parent just becoz I didn't do well?

How can I be so selfish and just think about myself?

Food, clothes, books, bags, love etc.

I've all these becoz of them.

I don't let myself fail not becoz I can't accept it.

Ok...shall end this topic here.

Wait till I've more deeper thoughts first.

hahahaha

If I've the ability to, I want to leave this place too.

Too many painful memories.

Get away from everyone and everything.

But I can't.

At least, for now.

I can't.

My life is more than just caring about myself.

There are other things that are way more important than just myself.

I don't know whether it's in me or it simply had become one of my habit.

When something happened, I tend to push the blame on myself first instead of pushing it on to others.

Good and bad, I guess.

Not that I've no self confidence.

Just that it's always good to check whether you're the one who's really to be blamed.

No one like to be blamed wrongfully.

Don't like the feeling of blaming other wrongfully.

Others may think that such act is a lack of self confidence.

But I think it's more of striving for perfection.

Of coz, we all have different point of views.

I'm not gonne stop being your friend just becoz we're different views.

That's plain stupid.

Ok...that's all for today.

Hope you guys are all doing well. 

:)