Hi hi.
I'm finally back after so long.
I'm just so tired, mentally and physically.
Both clinics is finally open and running.
Some problems here and there but it not a surprise.
So, clinics are open and here comes a time for me to rest and think about my future.
I've really learnt a lot from this job and also this company.
3 months of admin and 3 months of operations.
I feel that I've grown old so fast.
Is this the job that I really want at my age?
20 years old girl working as if she have a family to take care of and have lots of debt to clear?
I don't know...
Am I being too immature to think this way?
Ok...Lets think back.
Why did I want to quit banquet and find a full time job?
Ans: Becoz I want to have office experience and have a stable income and regular working hours.
Why did I choose to do admin in the first place?
Ans: Becoz I'm new to the office working work and thought that probably admin will be a way for a good start.
Why did I end up agreeing to do operations?
Ans: I thought it was a great opportunity to explore and expose myself to more things and it's like a challenge and goal to be able to set up clinic.
What was my goal when I agreed to take up operation?
Ans: Ensure that the company will be able to obtain the medical license and that both clinic will be operationally ready on the 1st April 2013.
Why did I not give up when things get real hard?
Ans: Reminded myself the main goal of accepting this challenge. If I give up without achieving the goal, then I will be letting myself down.
Then why do I want to quit now? Especially when the two clinics are up and going.
Ans: Becoz I start to think that is this the working environment that I want to be in? Or is this the thing that I really want to do? I feel that I'm restricting myself to more opportunities out there. There seem like a lot more things that I haven't try and experience before.
And most importantly, is this the kind of life that I want?
I am really so so tired.
Sigh...
It has been so long since I said I want a getaway.
This getaway never seem to come.
And it seem like it will never come true.
Now that May is coming, I want my long break but I totally have no idea if I can even get it with the two additional clinic coming up.
Why must I make myself so unhappy?
What's the purpose behind working so hard?
I have an income that doesn't match my workload and irregular working hours with a very very very demanding boss.
I just want a simple life.
Just like how it used to be.
I've enough adventure for the past 3 to 4 months.
It's enough.
