28th April 2011

FINALLY!!!!!

MARVIN APPROVED THE FYP VIDEO!!!!!

HURRAY!!!!!! ^^

SUPER SUPER SUPER HAPPY!!!!

Hahahaha...

I can finally put everything down and focus on 'A' level.

Once and for all. :D

When he said, 'Ok, can.'

I was seriously SOOOOO happy.

hahaha..

I wanted to give him a big hug. 

hahahaha..

But I didn't. :P

At that point of time, I can feel that my tears will just flow out anytime. 

Too happy, I guess.

But, somehow...

I feel a little down.

Hmm...how should I put it?

Hmm...Have you guys ever experience this kind of feeling?

That kind of feeling whereby you're really really happy but you can't find anyone to 

share the happiness with?

Reached back home, thinking that you can share with people you love dearly but..

end up realizing that you're the only one at home?

Oh well...anyway... 

The main thing is...

I'm FREE!!! 

Hahahahahahaha!!!!

25th April 2011

Sunrise or sunset?

Moon or stars?

Clouds or wind?

Hmm... can I have all?

Hahaha.. I'm being so greedy. :P

I think I'm in love with nature and stoning.

It simply feel so good to just sit there and enjoy the nature.

It would definitely be better if I've friend(s) stoning with me.

But, it's hard to find someone who can seriously just sit there and really do nothing.

Hahahaha.. But I think I'm lucky coz I found one. 

Muhahahaha!!!

Thanks for spending time stoning with me!!! ^.^

So cute!!!!

Have the sudden urge to get back into the kitchen to cook something nice.

Cheese omelette? 

Omelette Rice? 

Egg fried rice?

Spicy eggplant?

Pan fried dumpling?

Oh!!!! How can I forget?!

My signature dish!!! 

TOMATO CHICKEN STEW!!!! :D

Gosh..feeling hungry now. :x

hahaha.. Maybe I should cook during Friday or weekends since I'll be busy on other days.

Muhahahahahaha!!! 

Looking forward!!! :D

And I guess it's time for me to really tidy up my room. 

It's getting messier day by day. :x

hahahaha.. 

The dark circles around my eyes are getting darker. :(

So got to go to sleep now!!! 

Nights world!!! :D

Love you!!!! 

*Hugs*

Hmm...even though I'm used to not seeing you for months,

 I seriously very sad to know that you can't come back as planned.

I miss you.

23th April 2011

I know exactly what I want.

I know exactly what I'm doing.

After spending so much time for FYP, I need to focus on my studies.

But it doesn't mean that I'll have to sacrifice the time I want to spend with friends.

Especially with those people who I can really enjoy my time with and just be myself when I'm with them.

Ok, maybe I should not be so selfish.

 Only thinking about myself.

But all I wanna say is that, I'm quite sure that after FYP, I can spending time with people I love like my family and friends without forsaking my studies.

At least that's for me. 

But if they're affected by that, then maybe I'll just stop it. 

hahahaaha!!!

Main point: No matter what, I still love you guys!!! :D

22th April 2011

HURRAY!!!!!

FYP FINISHING SOON!!!!

I'M SO GLAD THAT IT'S GONNA BE OVER REAL SOON!!!

HURRAY!!!!

And after that, I'm gonna focus on my studies.

Around 190 days left to 'A' level.

Time flies so fast.

A little too fast.

Oh well, at least I'm not into this alone.

Hahahahaha!

Anyway, I had a super awesome day with Lixing today.

When to sing for 4 hours.

I think we sang about 60 songs? 

Maybe. haha..

It's was totally so awesome!!!!

Lixing, next time, we go again on weekdays k? :D

hahaha!!! Love you!!!

This 'long' weekend is a one that I'm looking forward to (beside the piles of homework. :P)

I can stone all I want. (maybe) 

I hope time will slow down.

So that I can enjoy all the moments we have together.

So looking forward to the weekend.:P

Finding a meaning/reason in everything I that I think it's hard to do.

That's how I keep myself going. :D

19th April 2011

It's about 1am...

And I'm sleepy...

But I can't get to sleep.

Too much feelings and thoughts...

Gonna pour all of it out here so I can sleep fast.

Met my secondary school teachers in school today.

Reminds me of those CCA days in secondary school.

Bad memories...

I seriously don't like it when past keeps on haunting me.

Film production....why do I love it?

It's taxing. It's tiring. It's stress.

So...why I still love it?

Director...

Responsible for the whole production.

Anything that goes wrong, Director will be the one being blamed.

I guess that's why I get so stress up. 

If so, then why did I take up the role?

Did I have a choice?

Maybe I do.

Anyway, that's not the issue I wanna talk about.

Through the process of film production, it's very easy to see the true self of someone.

Especially when you're behind the scene.

That's what I think.

I will never forget that in the process of film production, Director will be the one who will always get hated.

It has always been like this. 

No exception this time.

When I don't say anything about it, it doesn't mean that I don't know.

As much as I don't wanna care about the comments, it will definitely affect me. 

Still remember the days where I cried my heart out when no one in the club understand why I did certain stuff.

But...this time, I'll not cry.

At least, I'll will not before the project end.

Swallow all the sadness down hard, keep it in first

 and

 let it all out when everything end.

Pour everything out. Go to sleep. Tmr is another new day.

Goodnights.

15th April 2011

Finished re-shooting of FYP today.

Feel so sorry toward the members.

Sorry Jeth. You must be so tired. Rest well.

Sorry Clarinda. I guess you're stress out becoz of PW. Jiayou! Sleep well.

Sorry David. You're not feeling well but you're still doing it. Sorry for making you miss another German lesson.

Thanks guys! You guys are awesome! :D

 "Deadline is next week." 

This sentence keep on appearing in my mind.

Reminding me how tight the time is and how little time I have.

I guess I'll be able to cope quite well if my body cooperate with me. :(

Hais... I think as stress level starts to increase fast next week, my body will give me more problems.

Sort of regret not taking care of it in the past. 

Giving me so much problem now.

Oh well, it's the consequence I have to bear.

Looking forward to tmr.

It's gonna be full moon soon!!!

Hope the sky will be clear tmr night. :D 


Came across some interesting stuff just now.
A: What's the difference between thinking of someone all the time, and missing someone?
B: You think about that person with your brain. 
But you miss someone with your heart
Hahaha... It's sort of random. 
But it's quite true.
Hahaha...


Tmr is Saturday. 
Yet, I still have to go to school early.
How "awesome" is that? :P


Piggy!!! Jiayou!!!
你可以的!!! ^.^

14th April 2011

Didn't go to school today.

But... that doesn't mean i didn't study!!! 

hahaha! After breakfast and 'shopping' with mummy in the morning, just stayed at home to study CLL 

and, of course, stone!!! :D

CLL become so difficult. So many things to remember.

Luckily I have lots of feelings and imagination.

Hahaha...

Anyway, FYP deadline is getting closer day by day. 

Next week. 

Hopefully by then, I can finish it and totally focus on my studies.

Oh, and I'm come to a conclusion that there's actually nothing wrong with my body (I think). :P

Just that whenever I get too stress up, pressured or nervous, I'll vomit. 

But, it will get better after resting. haha..

And, I'm not pregnant!!! Can't believe my Mum actually thought so. -.-

After 5 FA in a week, I'm totally brain dead. 

But I guess it's something I've to get use to.

Oh well, at least I'm not alone.

The weather is seriously so cold today. But for some reasons, I like it. :D

haha... Reminds me of polar bear. hahaha..

Planning to go temple this weekend.

Need to calm myself and sort things out.

And then, going to watch movie!!!!:D

I don't wanna miss another movie anymore. hahaha..

In tough days like that, I just have to think positively. 

Yes, I'm very stress now. But I've to handle it.

7 more months and everything will be over.

Beside, I've friends and family with me.

Polar Bear fall sick these few days. Take care!!!!

10th April 2011

How I wish time will slow down when

 I'm stoning or just simply enjoying the company I have, the food I eat, the movies I want to watch...and many more.

This weekend is quite ok. At least not as bad as I thought it will be be.

Well, no doubt the editing is giving me lots and lots of problems and stress, but I believe I can manage it.

I'm still surviving. That's the main thing. hahahaha!!!!

Last time, I used to think that if I keep all my stress and sadness in me, not letting it out, it will go off by itself one day.

 But now, I just let everything off. At least I'm trying to let everything off. 

But it's gonna be hard. Habits are hard to change. :P

 Oh well, after letting everything off, I just got to pick myself up and face the problem.

Hopefully everything will get better.

Thanks piggy!!!!

 Thanks polar bear!!!!

You guys are awesome!!! 

Thanks for being there when I need you guys.

Love you guys lots!!!! :D

Thanks for all the stoning. I really enjoyed it. :D

6th April 2011

Block test....

I tripped over the block and fall flat on the ground.

Hurts a lot. Fell so badly that I don't know if I can stand up again.

But, I'll never give up. 

Coz I'm the one who choose this path.

No matter how tough and hard it is, I just gonna push myself and move forward.

I'll pick myself up soon.

'A' level should not be another block that cause me to fall down.

Never.

Expectations from Daddy and Mummy are too overwhelming for me.

I have expectations for myself too.

At least, all 'B's for my A level.

Seem to be quite impossible.

But, I'm Lansin.

 A girl who simply love to challenge the impossible.

 Muhahaha!!!

200++ more days to 'A' level.

Maybe I should not think of what's gonna happen in the future.

Just do my very best for now.

Anyway, beside studies, I still have my FYP.

Even though I'm done with the filming, I still haven't start on my editing.

Noooooo..... T.T

So many problems, so little time to solve.

Starting to feel the stress and pressure.

It's almost the same feeling I had a few years back.

Seriously hate that feeling.

Studies + FYP

It's gonna be the hardest term of the year.

I just seriously hope that everything will go well.

And.. I don't wanna lose anymore weight. If not, someone will surely kill me. >.<

Not sure if you'll see this, but just wanna thank you for being there.

You're awesome. Seriously.

Not sure about you, but I like it when I can be completely myself when I'm with you.

Thanks for being such an awesome friend.

Oh, and I just finished my 2.4km run today.

 Not too bad. 

hahaha! 

Anyway, I've come an conclusion.

 JC2 life is gonna be full of up and down.

 So, instead of always having a negative mindset, I shall change it to having a positive mindset.

Keep on telling myself that everything's gonna be alright. 

(Even though sometimes, I doubt so. :P)

Hahaha! Okies. 

Got to go off now.

Jiayou!!!!

When things get tough, never give up. 

If that thing doesn't kill you, it will just make you stronger.

2th Feb 2011

Phew... 

Block test is over. Filming for FYP is over.

But this also means that....

'A' level is nearer and editing for FYP is gonna start real soon.

Can't believe that I've lose 4KG over the past 2 weeks.

Sick and stress.

Anyway, I believe that things will get better soon.

I have my lovely family and a group of awesome friends with me.

Still a long way to go.

You are just you. I'll accept you as who you are.