Fast and Furious

Life been super fast and tiring for me for the past one week.

My schedule haven't been so packed before.

Breathless. This isn't the kind of life I want.

But, still, I'm glad that I tried a bit of it.

If I never try, I'll never know.

After talking to Chris and Brian, I'm clearer about what I want and what am I gonna do to achieve it. 

Welcome to the society where no one care about how hard to do during the process.

They only care about the result.

Seriously, i think I've come to a point whereby I don't really wanna care much.

To some people, they might think that I'm being too arrogant or proud.

But, I'm actually just being straightforward and honest.

I don't really give a damn about what other people think about me becoz i can't please everyone in this world.

So, I might as well just be myself. 

Isn't it easier?

I wanna try out new things.

I wanna see how am I like when I act in certain way.

Why?

Becoz I'm still young. There are still lots more things that I should learn.

People don't like to try out new things becoz they don't like to step out of their comfort zone.

But, come on, one can never stay in their comfort zone and still grow mature at the same time.

Anyway, I realized that I've changed a lot recently.

I learn how to control my emotion, thoughts and feelings.

I learn how to reject people.

I learn how to loosen up and stop being so serious.

I know what I'm doing.

I know whether I'm ready or not,

I know what exactly I want in life.

This is what I like about myself.

I'm ever-changing. 

But, the basic Me is always gonna be there.

I still love people who I dearly care for a lot.

me is always me.

Youj just happen to see a different side of me.

It's still a part of me.

Just accept it or forget about it.

23th March 2012

Today/yesterday was totally awesome!

Wanted to surprise Kenneth at his workplace.

but, I don't know how to get there. :(

So...end up asking him how to get there.

No longer a surprise anymore. :(

Next time!!! I'll go without giving him any notice.

Muahahahah! 

But, seriously, I miss this guy a lot man...

We didn't meet each other for like 2 months.

I think we have this kind of trend going on.

We only meet each other once in 2 or 3 months.

Of course I hope that we'll be able to meet each other more often.

I seriously love his company.

I think he's the only close guy friend that I can completely trust.

"Good friends are those that doesn't meet often but never lose contact."

Quoted from my brother. hahaha

I just simply be myself and be completely honest with him when i'm with him.

This kind of friend doesn't come by easily.

Gonna cherish our friendship dearly.

I hope he enjoyed my company too.

I really love this kind of friendship.

Just simply sitting at a playground with maybe some snacks or drinks and chat for long hours.

If he's not sleepy /tired or he doesn't have work tmr, I think we'll chat for even longer.

it's really weird about us.

He and I have like lots of different views, sometimes even opposing views, yet, we have endless things to talk about. :D

I don't think he's ever gonna see this post. 

So, I can say whatever i want also nvm. hehehe.

I'll feel very happy for that girl that he like/love.

She will be very fortunate becoz Kenneth is really a good guy.

Oh well...he will meet the right girl when the time is right.

Kenneth will still be Kenneth no matter what. 

I'm super glad to be his friend! :D

Really love him lots!! *hugs*

:D

21th March 2012

Things have been crazy recently...

Too much things to think of.

Sometimes, I do feel that I'm always too overwhelmed with emotions.

Things are getting complicated.

I shall go back to what I'll usually do.

See things lightly.

Think simply.

Coz this kind of days where I can still afford to see things lightly and think simply will not be long.

I'm happy as I am now.

I don't wish to regret my decision.

Back to reality.

No daydreams, no fairytales and no sweet talk.

A bullet may kill  you, but it may also set you on a different course to do something you would not normally do. 

19th March 2011

Hi hi! 

yea..I MIA-ed again.

But don't worry. I'm fine.

I know I'm supposed to continue the post about Nanjing.

But, i'm not in the mood to do so today.

Shall blog about some other stuff.

Had a really fun week.

I was supposed to meet my IDA mates for a gathering.

but, I was the one one who turned up.

Sort of sad. :(

But becoz of that, I got back into contact with Jue Ying and Randy.

super happy.

So, Randy and I met up at Highlander for dinner and drink.

Randy brought his friend Joel along while I brought Niki along.

Was super scare that Randy will bring some playboy guy and that niki would feel uncomfortable.

But, everything turn out quite well. :D

Jo and Niki were super sweet that day. hahaha.

Feels like they're a couple.

After Highlander, we went to club.

Yup, you didn't see wrongly. 

For the first time, I went to a club.

Was really fun. The music was high and company was awesome.

I'm glad Niki had a great night out.

Havn't really seen her so happy for so long.

Hope she's really happy. 

Oh, Niki and I even went to Switch by Timbre that day before.

Hmm...high atmosphere and nice singer.

Had a long 'lecture' with niki.

I really think i should stop nagging. 

hahaha.

Oh oh oh, and my dearest Lixing!!!

Went out with her for her shopping spree on Saturday.

Seriously miss this girl a lot.

hahaha. The day turn out really well.

We went to a new flea at F1 Pit building.

The flea was great!!! Air conditioned! And the things sold there have their own style and it's not very expensive.

Lixing brought lots of nice clothes! :D so happy for her. :D

We even went for a movie at Cineleisure!

We went to watch "This means War".

Seriously, the movie was great. No, it was Awesome!

hahaha.

Really enjoyed that day a lot. :D

I feel super happy to see people around me so blessed.

Things seems to be turning well for everyone. :D

---------------------------Time for some inner thoughts--------------------------

Yes. I truly feel very happy for people around me becoz things are turning great for them.

But, somehow, I feel very drained at times.

I guess it's time to re-charge myself again.

I wanna look at things in a simple manner.

I don't like to complicate things.

I want everything to be either 'black' or 'white'.

I don't like to have grey areas.

Yet, I know that there are lots of things that I can't control.

Not everything will go the way I want it to.

Thinking back about the past 6 months, I feel really lucky.

That relationship that has completely messed up my life had given me a chance to tidy up my life completely.

Yes. The process is painful and unbearable.

But, I believe I become a better person.

At least that's what I think.

Yet, I feel very drained.

I guess I've been trying too hard to change.

I feel as if I still need another 6 more months.

It's important to love, but it's more important to know when not to love.

It's important to care, but it's more important to know when not to care.

It's important to change, but it's more important to know when to reflect.

I feel that I'm going out of line.

Conclusion:

I need a self reflection.

Enough of fun.

Now...it's time to get back to work and reality.

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Mistakes make us who we are. - FDR Foster (This means War) 

Nanjing

Nanjing

A quiet place.

At least quieter than Singapore.

I took a flight from Singapore to Guangzhou.

And then transit from Guangzhou to Nanjing.

What's so nice about Nanjing?

STRAWBERRIES!!!!

I'm lucky coz it's the 'strawberry season' when I was there.

Fresh strawberries can be seen anywhere and brought cheaply.

It only cost like 15 to 20 yuan (SGD$3 to 4) for around 20 to 30 strawberries.

Oh oh oh, and also the dumplings there are really very very nice.

The dumplings at Da Niang Shui Jiao (大娘水饺）really have some standard.

Especially, the dumpling skin.

Not too thick. Not too thin.

Not too hard. Not too soft.

Just nice. hehehehe

This is cabbage with pork dumplings.

Out of the 14 days, I went to eat this for like 4 or 5 times.

And, this is one of the food that I miss the most after I left.

 oh, this shop also sell different kind of soup.
Drink a bowl of hot and delicious soup on a freezing day is the most awesome thing in the world.
hahahahaha!
Man...I'm starting to miss the taste of the dumplings and soup.
Da Niang Shui Jiao is a chain shop.
But, I love to go to the one at 新城市广场( New City Shopping Mall)。
Coz the dumplings and service there are the best.
Oh, and of course, becoz it's nearest to my house.

This is like 'Satay'.
Looks like Satay. But taste totally different.
Hmm..it's a bit salty and spicy.
The meat is very tender and there are meat juice in it.
Ah...My stomach is grumbling now.
I WANT TO EAT!!!!

Sigh...
ok...To be continue...
(I need to find food now.)

3th March 2012

其实要获取正能量很简单啊，就是多做会让自己开心的事。

当你决定要做一件事情的时候，一定要清楚自己喜不喜欢，去做了会不会开心，一旦开始做了就不要抱怨。

不要跟别人作比较。学会如何爱自己，珍惜自己所拥有的一切。
- 李心洁


Sound so impossible.
Yet, I'm trying my best to lead this kind of life.
I'm back to zero.
Yes...Back to zero.
But,..so what?
I believe I can make it.
And, I'm gonna continue believing.
I guess I lose to luck this time round.
Like I said before, I'll sit and wait for the challenges that awaits me.
Am I ready to fight, no matter the result?

2th March 2012

Extracted from my written diary:

Yet, the future seem gloomy to me. I don't wanna work in an environment where I'm being so restricted. 

I guess I have bigger dreams. 

I wanna live an extraordinary life when I'm still young. 

Doing what I want to do. 

Be free, relaxed and contented.

Perhaps, that's the life that I want.

Yes...I guess that the life that I want.

And, I'll do whatever I can to fight for it.

1st March 2012

Tmr...I'll be getting my 'A' level results.

Whatever happens, happens.

No matter what's the result, I swear to face it positively.

What I know is I gave my best.

If I have to repeat, then so be it.

I'll treat it as a second chance.

If I manage to get into Uni, it will course be awesome.

Mentally prepared for the worst.

In this 3 months break, I've really learn a lot.

And changed a lot.

Unlike the past, I slowed up my pace of life.

Enjoy the simplicity of life.

And very contented with what I have.

I can only say that I'm actually a very very fortunate girl.

I guess it doesn't really matter what will happen in the future as long as I cherish what I have now.

Hope everything goes well tmr.