Tuesday, July 15, 2014

15th July 2014


Half a month through July.
Looking forward to the upcoming public holiday,
Almost forgot what it feels like to have a holiday.

3 more weeks to the end of my contract.
Still in the midst of finding my next job.
While looking for a job, I'm also trying to do things that I want to do in the past.

Though money is still (and will always be) a problem, I've decided not to place too much focus and ponder too much over it. Coz it will always backfire.

I can sense that I have lesser people around me as I grow older.
We grow, we learn, what we want changes, our mindset changes and we drift apart.
That's growing up.
That's life.

Still, I'm gonna hold a positive attitude and move along as I fall and rise.

Life just get better with you around.
Both the monkey and you.

Glad that things are going considerably well for you.
Hiccups here and there are normal.
Believe that with your skill, character and experience, you will go even further.


Oh, and what is life without good food?
Huge thanks to my love for bring me to eat really nice food!
The lobster porridge is really good.
Will never forget the taste of the soup.

Can't wait for the US trip next year.
Though it is still like months away, its still nice to have something to look forward to.
Imagine the blue sky, chill breeze, starry night, clam chowder and sour dough.
Feels so good just by thinking about it.
It's like a dream coming true.
I'm gonna hold on tight and make sure it come true!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

09/07

3 weeks plus to the end of my contract.
Still in the midst of finding my next chapter.
The feeling totally sucks.
No one seems to understand my situation and feeling right now.

I know no matter what I say now, you must be thinking that I'm just indulging myself in self-pity and just trying to justify myself. But seriously, I'm not in the mood to care about what others think about me. Coz I have enough of it.

My future is in my hand.
I'll choose to do what I want with it.
No one can force me to do anything that I don't like. 
I'm so tired right now.
But the time is still ticking and life goes on. 
Still holding on it.
Tough time will end. Tough people won't.

Words of encouragement to myself:

Lansin Wee, you have been through so much.
This is nothing to you. 
Hang in there.
Coz eventually, everything will be fine.
You are a lady who knows what you want.
Just a bit more.
Hang in there...

At least on the bright side, after sleeping and resting for a few weeks, my hair is growing back fast. 
And the roots are getting stronger.
Good to have something to be happy about in times like this.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

7th July 2014

Still left with one more month...
I guess I can't be too picky over the job selection.
Lets just be more realistic.
Every month, half of my salary goes to bills.
Wanting to save make it much difficult. 

Really hope I won't take a wrong step this time round.
Such life can be quite suffocating at times.

无奈。。。