7th September 2014

Ahhh..

School is finally starting.

You have no idea how happy I am.

Don't really like it when my life is all about work and nothing else.

Work have been a little boring but at least more I'm earning more than before.

Though I really quite miss those days at UOB.

I've come to realised that I can't just solely depend on working to get more money.

I need to find a side line.

Need to find other source of income.

I want to earn more so that my parent can enjoy their life and I don't have to be constantly worried about money. I have so many places that I want to go and so many things that I wanna do. With the possibility that I might get married early, I really hope that I will be able to do most of them before I get married. Beccoz after marriage, there will be some stuff that I won't be able to do.

However, in order for me to fulfill this dream, I will need two things. 

First is Money. Second is Health.

I can feel it for myself that my health have been deteriorating even since the start of the year.

I guess after I fell down and injured my leg, things ain't turning well.

Probably coz I didn't take good care of it, the wound got infected and the wound get infected by bacteria. 

Went to see a few doctors but none of them are of any help. 

After visiting doctors for several time, I got very frustrated and went to the polyclinic.

Finally after treatment, the wound got better.

But rashes and blister starts to come and go on my skin.

I think the bacteria had attacked my body.

Really hope things will get well after treatment.

Scheduling for a health checkup soon.

Hoping that everything will be fine.

Spent past three days with my parent.

Had a really great bonding time with them.

Whenever I look at them, I just feel blessed that I have them as my parent.

 I have a brother that I don't even wanna mention or acknowledge that I have such brother.  But that's beside the point.

I always believe that things will get better.

For now, I don't have health and money.

But I believe that things will definitely be better.

End... Start again!

It has finally ended.

My contract with UOB ended on the 4th August 2014.

I'm really proud of myself not just becoz I've completed the contract, but also becoz I believe I did the right thing and did it right. 

When facing material benefits and consciences, I chose the latter. 

I'm going to miss this group of people so much. Given my some much lessons, love and memories.

No doubt I could have just ended it early and start looking for a new job, the so-called advantages are just short terms. And I'm really glad that I'm not that shortsighted. 

Apparently, it is a blessing in disguise. 

I didn't stay jobless for too long. 

Just one week after the contract end, i landed myself with a job that I have great interest in.

Its under risk and compliance.

I'm so glad I accept the offer.

It was everything I wanted but just for one small, little flaw.

It's a six months contract job.

But I believe that I will learn a great deal within this six months.

Anyway, beside for work, some updates about some of the happenings in my life.

Singapore just celebrated her 49th birthday!

Even though i couldn't get tickets for the actual celebration, I still manage to get 6 tickets for one of its rehearsal! So my parent, my bro, my bro's gf, myself and Nic, we went to watch it together. haha

Sound really fun right?

It is very fun.

Oh, and it was Nic's first time going to such national day celebration! 

Still remember him telling me that too bad don't have the ticket for the actual day.

Baby, don't worry k? Next year we'll try again!

Photos taken mostly by Nic. He seems to be quite good in taking photos.

*Thumbs up*

Looking forward to out next National Day Celebration.

Everything will start turning better.

Believe in myself. 

Jiayou!

15th July 2014

Half a month through July.

Looking forward to the upcoming public holiday,

Almost forgot what it feels like to have a holiday.

3 more weeks to the end of my contract.

Still in the midst of finding my next job.

While looking for a job, I'm also trying to do things that I want to do in the past.

Though money is still (and will always be) a problem, I've decided not to place too much focus and ponder too much over it. Coz it will always backfire.

I can sense that I have lesser people around me as I grow older.

We grow, we learn, what we want changes, our mindset changes and we drift apart.

That's growing up.

That's life.

Still, I'm gonna hold a positive attitude and move along as I fall and rise.

Life just get better with you around.

Both the monkey and you.

Glad that things are going considerably well for you.

Hiccups here and there are normal.

Believe that with your skill, character and experience, you will go even further.

Oh, and what is life without good food?

Huge thanks to my love for bring me to eat really nice food!

The lobster porridge is really good.

Will never forget the taste of the soup.

Can't wait for the US trip next year.

Though it is still like months away, its still nice to have something to look forward to.

Imagine the blue sky, chill breeze, starry night, clam chowder and sour dough.

Feels so good just by thinking about it.

It's like a dream coming true.

I'm gonna hold on tight and make sure it come true!

09/07

3 weeks plus to the end of my contract.

Still in the midst of finding my next chapter.

The feeling totally sucks.

No one seems to understand my situation and feeling right now.

I know no matter what I say now, you must be thinking that I'm just indulging myself in self-pity and just trying to justify myself. But seriously, I'm not in the mood to care about what others think about me. Coz I have enough of it.

My future is in my hand.

I'll choose to do what I want with it.

No one can force me to do anything that I don't like. 

I'm so tired right now.

But the time is still ticking and life goes on. 

Still holding on it.

Tough time will end. Tough people won't.

Words of encouragement to myself:

Lansin Wee, you have been through so much.

This is nothing to you. 

Hang in there.

Coz eventually, everything will be fine.

You are a lady who knows what you want.

Just a bit more.

Hang in there...

At least on the bright side, after sleeping and resting for a few weeks, my hair is growing back fast. 

And the roots are getting stronger.

Good to have something to be happy about in times like this.

7th July 2014

Still left with one more month...

I guess I can't be too picky over the job selection.

Lets just be more realistic.

Every month, half of my salary goes to bills.

Wanting to save make it much difficult. 

Really hope I won't take a wrong step this time round.

Such life can be quite suffocating at times.

无奈。。。