7th September 2014

Ahhh..

School is finally starting.

You have no idea how happy I am.

Don't really like it when my life is all about work and nothing else.

Work have been a little boring but at least more I'm earning more than before.

Though I really quite miss those days at UOB.

I've come to realised that I can't just solely depend on working to get more money.

I need to find a side line.

Need to find other source of income.

I want to earn more so that my parent can enjoy their life and I don't have to be constantly worried about money. I have so many places that I want to go and so many things that I wanna do. With the possibility that I might get married early, I really hope that I will be able to do most of them before I get married. Beccoz after marriage, there will be some stuff that I won't be able to do.

However, in order for me to fulfill this dream, I will need two things. 

First is Money. Second is Health.

I can feel it for myself that my health have been deteriorating even since the start of the year.

I guess after I fell down and injured my leg, things ain't turning well.

Probably coz I didn't take good care of it, the wound got infected and the wound get infected by bacteria. 

Went to see a few doctors but none of them are of any help. 

After visiting doctors for several time, I got very frustrated and went to the polyclinic.

Finally after treatment, the wound got better.

But rashes and blister starts to come and go on my skin.

I think the bacteria had attacked my body.

Really hope things will get well after treatment.

Scheduling for a health checkup soon.

Hoping that everything will be fine.

Spent past three days with my parent.

Had a really great bonding time with them.

Whenever I look at them, I just feel blessed that I have them as my parent.

 I have a brother that I don't even wanna mention or acknowledge that I have such brother.  But that's beside the point.

I always believe that things will get better.

For now, I don't have health and money.

But I believe that things will definitely be better.

End... Start again!

It has finally ended.

My contract with UOB ended on the 4th August 2014.

I'm really proud of myself not just becoz I've completed the contract, but also becoz I believe I did the right thing and did it right. 

When facing material benefits and consciences, I chose the latter. 

I'm going to miss this group of people so much. Given my some much lessons, love and memories.

No doubt I could have just ended it early and start looking for a new job, the so-called advantages are just short terms. And I'm really glad that I'm not that shortsighted. 

Apparently, it is a blessing in disguise. 

I didn't stay jobless for too long. 

Just one week after the contract end, i landed myself with a job that I have great interest in.

Its under risk and compliance.

I'm so glad I accept the offer.

It was everything I wanted but just for one small, little flaw.

It's a six months contract job.

But I believe that I will learn a great deal within this six months.

Anyway, beside for work, some updates about some of the happenings in my life.

Singapore just celebrated her 49th birthday!

Even though i couldn't get tickets for the actual celebration, I still manage to get 6 tickets for one of its rehearsal! So my parent, my bro, my bro's gf, myself and Nic, we went to watch it together. haha

Sound really fun right?

It is very fun.

Oh, and it was Nic's first time going to such national day celebration! 

Still remember him telling me that too bad don't have the ticket for the actual day.

Baby, don't worry k? Next year we'll try again!

Photos taken mostly by Nic. He seems to be quite good in taking photos.

*Thumbs up*

Looking forward to out next National Day Celebration.

Everything will start turning better.

Believe in myself. 

Jiayou!

15th July 2014

Half a month through July.

Looking forward to the upcoming public holiday,

Almost forgot what it feels like to have a holiday.

3 more weeks to the end of my contract.

Still in the midst of finding my next job.

While looking for a job, I'm also trying to do things that I want to do in the past.

Though money is still (and will always be) a problem, I've decided not to place too much focus and ponder too much over it. Coz it will always backfire.

I can sense that I have lesser people around me as I grow older.

We grow, we learn, what we want changes, our mindset changes and we drift apart.

That's growing up.

That's life.

Still, I'm gonna hold a positive attitude and move along as I fall and rise.

Life just get better with you around.

Both the monkey and you.

Glad that things are going considerably well for you.

Hiccups here and there are normal.

Believe that with your skill, character and experience, you will go even further.

Oh, and what is life without good food?

Huge thanks to my love for bring me to eat really nice food!

The lobster porridge is really good.

Will never forget the taste of the soup.

Can't wait for the US trip next year.

Though it is still like months away, its still nice to have something to look forward to.

Imagine the blue sky, chill breeze, starry night, clam chowder and sour dough.

Feels so good just by thinking about it.

It's like a dream coming true.

I'm gonna hold on tight and make sure it come true!

09/07

3 weeks plus to the end of my contract.

Still in the midst of finding my next chapter.

The feeling totally sucks.

No one seems to understand my situation and feeling right now.

I know no matter what I say now, you must be thinking that I'm just indulging myself in self-pity and just trying to justify myself. But seriously, I'm not in the mood to care about what others think about me. Coz I have enough of it.

My future is in my hand.

I'll choose to do what I want with it.

No one can force me to do anything that I don't like. 

I'm so tired right now.

But the time is still ticking and life goes on. 

Still holding on it.

Tough time will end. Tough people won't.

Words of encouragement to myself:

Lansin Wee, you have been through so much.

This is nothing to you. 

Hang in there.

Coz eventually, everything will be fine.

You are a lady who knows what you want.

Just a bit more.

Hang in there...

At least on the bright side, after sleeping and resting for a few weeks, my hair is growing back fast. 

And the roots are getting stronger.

Good to have something to be happy about in times like this.

7th July 2014

Still left with one more month...

I guess I can't be too picky over the job selection.

Lets just be more realistic.

Every month, half of my salary goes to bills.

Wanting to save make it much difficult. 

Really hope I won't take a wrong step this time round.

Such life can be quite suffocating at times.

无奈。。。

End of chapter

Today is the day...

I woke up and will have to accept that you are no longer in my life anymore.

I love you...

Hope you will stay healthy and find the love of your life soon.

Contented

No work, no school.

Tmr is an awesome day.

One of the few days where i can fully enjoy my day.

Woohoo~

Had a great chat with daddy and mummy today.

It has come to my realisation that, till now, I'm actually having a very good life.

Now that i look back to my past few years of my life, I'm actually quite convinced that lao tian ye have given me a very good path of life.

During my secondary school, I've Videography as my greatest hobby and interest.

I actually didn't realise how much I love it until after JC.

But it was too late coz i wasn't able to pursue it anymore.

After secondary school comes my JC life. 

Initially I was quite upset that I didnt get into the Poly course I wanted.

Which is why i ended up in JC.

But now that I see, it was the best decision that I've ever made in my life.

Not just becoz it opens me up to a wide variety of course that i can pursue in Uni, but also (to me, a very important reason) the school fees are so much cheaper than studying in Poly.

I know I know, this reason might sound quite stupid to some of you.

But to me, its very important becoz it just simply means like financial burden to my family.

Plus, the JC life is also quite a good memories

There's no doubt that there are bad memories.

But I've come to a point that I accept this bad memories as part and parcel of my life story.

Moving on to life after JC.

Again...I didn't manage to get into the Uni course that I want after taking m 'A' level results.

It was a very tough period in my life as I've suddenly lost a direction of where I'm heading toward and what I'm going to be.

But I was glad that I stood on firm to my stand and didn't make any rush decision on going into any Uni course that I can.

And the life journey after that was simply amazing...

I used that ten second of courage to apply for the job as a banquet server and it totally open myself to a side of the world that I've never touch before.

This journey on exploring how the real society works, the nature of different job and meeting all sorts of people.

That was something that I never ever dream that I will do or happen in my life.

From banquet server to working at lobby lounge and moving to mooncake roadshow.

One hotel, different departments, different experience.

In a short six months, I've seen so much and experience so much.

However, after moving in to working in TanSL that I've realised whatever I experience before this was just the tip of the iceberg.

TanSL is where I learn about human relation and how the society really works.

Maybe I should say it woke me up from a dream where I thought society was all nice and clean.

During this six months plus in TSL, I went through a negative chance in personality which I'm totally grateful that I manage to change back and also the process of being make used of.

However, it was an awesome test on my knowledge and ability.

Which I'm actually quite happy with. hahaha

After one whole year of society lesson, I've come to this point of my life.

I'm now back to studies and having a clearer view of the future and at the same time having a part time job that allows me to see the most realistic view of the society every single day. After working for three months in the bank, I've a total new view 'MONEY'. 

It is something that I never really give any deep thought about in the past.

I guess 'MONEY' is the next society lesson that I'll be learning and I'm truly looking forward to it.

After saying so much, I look at myself right now and I can truthfully say that I'm really happy with my life right now.

I have the opportunity to go back to studies, work, earning a living for myself, being filial to my parent and having quite a stable life that has its depth. 

Anything extra are bonus.

What more can I ask for.

Ok, shall end this post by sharing with you guys something that my Dad said today.

钱不是万能的。可是没有钱却什么都不能。

但是，要记得永远都不要成为钱的奴隶。

Translate into English, it should be something like this.

Money can't get you everything.

But without money, you can't get anything.

However, remember that never ever end up as the slave of money.