Picking up the broken pieces.

Stupidly fell down and the broken pieces shattered.

28th September 2011

Just gonna be a short post before heading to bed.

I'm tired.

But I'll keep going on.

Just a few more weeks.

We are all human beings. 

We all have expectations.

27th September 2011

So...back to school after Prelim 2.

Well, 2 more weeks and I'll be off for study break.

33 more days and I'll be sitting for 'A' level.

Gonna give my very best.

Coz I know You gave me the ability to do it.

It's just up to whether I want to do it.

Since I have it, I will do it.

I know why I have to do it even though sometimes I really really don't want to.

Because, You gave me this so that I can share it with our people in the future.

Just 1.5 more months.

Gonna give my best.

(And try my best not to complain too much. :P hehehehehe)

All those sweat, pain, mental torture and sadness behind all those smiles.

I see it. 

I feel it.

I accept it.

Coz it's all part of life.

Though sometimes, I don't really know how to deal with it. 

:(

Oh well....

JIAYOU!!!!!!! 

:D

25th September 2011

Communicate, listen, understand, accept and move on. 

No misunderstanding.

:D

24th September 2011

Seriously, what do you want me to do?

Since when everything become so tiring?

Sometimes, I just hope that you can feel and understand what I'm feeling.

"No woman deserves to be used and thrown aside to be picked up when convenient."

So true.

22th September 2011

A: Seriously I've no idea why I care so much. When other don't care, why should I even care?

B: Coz you're special.

A: So??? That doesn't mean that I should tolerate all this shit from them, right?

B: Hey, just imagine, if everyone in this one have the same thinking as you, what will the world become? It will become so selfish. Because everyone is just thinking about getting and receiving. No one wants to give and share.

A: Me alone giving doesn't make any differences. I'm a human too. Come on, don't be naive and foolish. This is a realistic world. Everyone is selfish. People care about themselves first.

B: So, does that mean that you have to be like them???

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21th September 2011

Finally...Prelim 2 is over.

Though I'm not sure if how well (or bad) i've done, I'm pretty sure that it's much better than Prelim 1.

Coz I know how to answer those questions. 

Just not enough time to finish writing it. :x

Oh well, at least I have the content knowledge. 

Muhahahahaha...

Have a few free days.

Shall have a good rest and of course, do some studying too.

I seriously don't hate studying.

I just hate the stress that put on me and the environment too.

Oh well, I believe there's a reason why I'm going through all this stuff.

But yea...I'll put myself through it.

I need to go shopping. 

I wanna go to the beach.

I wanna breathe in some fresh air.

I wanna live as if there's no tmr.

Yet, sometimes, things just hit hard on me.

But, i'm not gonna let it beat me.

Coz I'm Lansin Wee~~~

haahaha

So arrogant. :P

Maybe what i really should start to think about is what I'm gonna do in the next few days.

Ahahahaha

Probably the last possible break I have before my 'A' level.

Best luck to those who still have exams. 

:D

Cheers!!!

I love yours.

Coz He created you.

I love mine too.

Coz He created me.

So what to do?

Can I love Both?

14th September 2011

Halfway through Prelim 2 exam.

Process: Painful but used to it.

Result: Probably better than Prelim 1.

Current Mental State: Like a rubber band that's gonna snap.

 Just wanna lying down on a field, look up to the sky and stone.

Current Physical State: Lots of mosquitoes bites, panda eyes due to lack of sleep, pain on left knee and body aches.

Man...this is insane.

The past, the present and the future.

I thought I can go through this without falling a drop of tears.

I thought I can face it without fear.

I thought I can start afresh with you out of my life.

Studies, social life, personal life...

I went up to you, hoping that you will help me escape.

But, no. You didn't. 

You used your own way to tell me that you can't help me escape.

You used your way to tell me that I have to face it.

You used your own way to tell me that in order to taste the sweetness, you must know the taste of bitterness.

You used you own way to tell me that it is something I have to face even if I really don't want to.

I get your message.

I really do.

No matter how tired I am, I'm gonna pull myself up and put myself through it.

Coz I know, there is definitely a reason for what I'm going through.

And I'm slowly getting the reason why you're doing it.

No matter how scared I am, I will still face it.

Coz I once heard before, "A person with no fear is person with no hope."

I believe there's a reason why I've a great impression of the quote.

Oh well...studies...I don't remember hating and fearing it so much.

But...I just got to put myself through it.

It's part of life.

Moving on...

I guess the past is still haunting me.

I guess i didn't expect to see him even again in my entire life.

I froze. I ran away. I didn't know how to react.

But there's one thing that I'm very sure of.

I never want to have anything to do with him in the rest of my life.

Yet, flashbacks keeping coming back.

Tearing me apart.

Filling me with guilt.

I'll try my very best to pull myself out of the past.

Not gonna forget coz I can't. But, not gonna let it affect my current life.

Never. 

It's not worth it.

Future...

So many things I'm looking forward to...

Yet, so many things I'm scare of...

So...

maybe the best thing to do is just get out of my past, enjoy my present

 and anticipate the future that you've planned for me. :D

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Food for thought

A passage that I did during my CLL Prelim 2 paper placed me into deep thoughts.

It's a letter from a woman who gave up her own personal time so as to devote all her time on taking care of her husband, kids and her love ones. As much she what they do irritates her, she still tolerate it. Coz to her, as long as they are happy, nothing else matters. Because she loves them.

Her husband was worried that the it will be too much for her and that it may end up separating them.

Yet, she said, "Together, even if it's just sleeping side by side, it's also alright. Not together, missing each other, it's also alright. No matter what, it's all alright."

I guess that simply because she loves him.

How much are you willing to do for love?

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Okay...my post is too long. 

Shall continue next time. 

:D

I'm starting to understand.

There's a reason why you arrange these people to be in my life.

I'm starting to understand.

9th September 2011

I've a wonderful boyfriend.

Love you lots!

:D

5th September 2011

Finally updating my blog...

Miss this small little space of mine so much.

Just few more days to Prelim 2.

Gonna work real hard and mug like hell.

But will still try to make some time for family and friends.

Hopefully I'll do well this time.

Oh well, a long day today.

When to school early in the morning even though it's school holiday.

Start to do work till late afternoon.

Went out with friends to Expo for the Broader Sales.

Didn't really wanna go in the first place. Coz very far. :X

But I thought maybe there would be some Chinese novels that I've been aiming fo.

Ended up to be a total disappointment.

No Chinese novels at all!!! 

Or maybe Broaders don't sell chinese stuff?

Felt like a lost sheep in there.

Oh well, at least managed to spend time with friends. :D

 Had Burger King as dinner.

Not a really good choice. :x

Too much acid from the burger and the soft drinks. :X

Stomach super uncomfortable.

Oh well... :P

Anyway, had some thoughts to share.

Recently, I've been thinking that maybe I should really prioritise my stuff.

Spending time with things worth doing or have to do and spending time with people worth spending with.

Also, giving up stuff that's worth giving up for.

Like giving up some alone time to spend with family or something like that.

hahaha.. Recently, I also have this habit of going with others views and decision.

  For example, like what people wanna eat or where they wanna go.

Not that I don't have a mind of my own. 

Just that I just think that there's no point doing so?

haha...

if it doesn't really affect me much, why not just go with the flow?

Ok, maybe it will get abit annoying sometimes. I think,

:P

hahaha. 

Oh well...

My point is...don't always have to think about yourself first.

Live a simple but adventurous life. 

Don't rush. Enjoy.

:D