Heyyo peeps!
Feels like it has been damn long..
How's everyone?
Hope you all are still well despite having a hard time in life!
haha just going to have a simple update on my life and will end with some random thoughts.
Well, Uni life have been alright.
Couldn't really feel a big diff as its almost like JC.
But its a real challenge to balance between work, life and study.
And I really regret planning my school timetable in such way.
School on monday, wednesday, friday ans saturday.
Really very fucked up.
So I'm gona revamp my timetable next semester.
Hope I'll have to discipline and mental strength to hang in there and do well.
Just quite worried for my POA coz i can't understand a single shit that the lecturer is going through!
Lets pray hard that i'll go through this.
Work has been quite bad for me last week.
But as time goes by and as I try my very best to do it well, things are getting and better for me.
Lets hope it will continue to be so.
Gonna keep my fingers crossed.
But the thing is I'm not sure if i'll continue this job after the contract ends. :/
Coz i feel like spending more time on my studies.
But still... gotta consider the financial part.
Oh well...shall not think about it since i still got like 9 more months before the contract ends.
The bear and I just passed our first anniversary like 2 months ago.
Couldn't believe that we lasted this long.
We always have our ups and downs.
No doubt that we have those thoughts of breaking up at times, we would always put in an effort to make things right.
I guess...we are all learning and growing at the same time.
But i'm going to keep my hopes down.
Just loving him as much as i can.
I think its important to keep things lively between a relationship.
If not, as time goes by, things will just turn dull..
Have something to look forward to every few months.
I guess its something that really keeps the relationship going.
Becoz love fades off too easily.
But I know that he will always be in my heart.
Always..
Ok!
Time for random thoughts!
Just going to type out whats coming to my mind now.
I realised that i'm starting to get very tired of entertaining or talking to people.
Probably becoz its getting harder and harder to find people that treat me truly and sincerely.
Everyone is just using everyone.
Temptation, facade, jealousy, betrayal.
It seem to be everywhere and anywhere.
The more I step into the society, the more i explore myself in this world, it just get more and more disheartening.
Especially now that i'm working in a bank.
What i see everyday are the most realistic reflection of life.
Money is just so evil.
Yet, we can't get by without it.
We have to wear a mask just so as to protect ourself.
We have to be very cautious and alert at the same time.
Knowing who are the ones that you can trust and who are those that are just passerby in life.
What i want is just a simple life.
But simplicity is the hardest to get after I step into the society.
As long as I dont lose myself, I'll be fine.
Fairytales doesn't exist...
If only things are like how it used to be....
