Back on!!!

Hi!

Another month gone....

August is gonna be here soon.

And i'm actually quite excited about it.

Haha.. updates!

Nothing much special this month.

Just getting myself busy with all the school stuff.

Collecting my Student Pass (yes! I'm a student again), going for preparatory lectures, revsing on some old JC and secondary school stuff.

I think i'll forgotten almost hal of what I've learnt back then in school. -.-

But all I can say is that I'm so looking forward to school.

So yea...
School is going well.
Found a job in UOB and hoping that things can go well or me too.
Love is also going well for me.
Xiong and I are getting along well.
haha.. Sometimes, it feels that he is becoming like me and I'm somehow becoming like him.

Lets hope that things will continue to be good and smooth for me. :)

Drive and Motivation

Hi guys,

I'm back from my short getaway.

Well, I guess the getaway was still alright?

Just a break for me to chill and cool myself down.

Have a Starbuck Green Tea Latte, sit outside the cafe and enjoy the cooling, refresh air with awesome hill view.

Seems like I had quite a good life right?

Went to a temple there and the whole environment is really good for have deep thoughts, clearing minds or just simply enjoy the nature there.

If I remember correctly, it was my third day there a when I went to the temple.

Kinda missing home at that point of time. 

Reason being it was getting a little boring and the things there are so overpriced and I can hardly find nice food there.

So I sorta miss all the nice food in Singapore.

hahahaha

okok.. I'm not gonna talk much about my getaway.

Actually the main point of this post is to share with you guys some of my thoughts and feelings that I have recently.

I realised that after I had that job at OneHealth, I lost my drive, motivation and passion for the job.

It's no longer like how I used to feel when I'm working at Conrad.

Back then at Conrad, though the working hours are harsh and it's stressful coz of the high service standard as a five star hotel but I must say that I've really enjoyed my days there. 

I wasn't really working for the money but I'm working because it really made my day with all the happy, friendly and driven people around me.

But in OneHealth, everything changes. 

I'm no longer happy.

Things are stressful but i'm no longer happy.

Becoz the things i do is not worth the stress.

People around are all evil and disgusting.

And worst of all, I get poorer and poorer as I work harder and harder.

It's that i have problem meeting my ends.

I'll have to drag myself to work every single day.

And i've came to a point that I realised that I'm just working for the money.

But, i'm too young to just simply work for money.

Maybe ten years down the road when I have family and financial burden, I would work for money even if the work is like shit.

But not now. 

I want to have my life now coz i know i won't have a chance to do so in the future.

So i quit.

However, ever since then, I've completely lost the drive and motivation to work.

Really...

I hate that disgusting work past that i had.

Yea, no doubt it really gave me a very good experience of working life but also bad memories that I've never ever forget in my entire life.

I swear I'll have to pull myself together and find back the pure drive, motivation and happiness to work in midst of studying.

Yes. I have to. I must find it back.