19th April 2011

It's about 1am...

And I'm sleepy...

But I can't get to sleep.

Too much feelings and thoughts...

Gonna pour all of it out here so I can sleep fast.

Met my secondary school teachers in school today.

Reminds me of those CCA days in secondary school.

Bad memories...

I seriously don't like it when past keeps on haunting me.

Film production....why do I love it?

It's taxing. It's tiring. It's stress.

So...why I still love it?

Director...

Responsible for the whole production.

Anything that goes wrong, Director will be the one being blamed.

I guess that's why I get so stress up. 

If so, then why did I take up the role?

Did I have a choice?

Maybe I do.

Anyway, that's not the issue I wanna talk about.

Through the process of film production, it's very easy to see the true self of someone.

Especially when you're behind the scene.

That's what I think.

I will never forget that in the process of film production, Director will be the one who will always get hated.

It has always been like this. 

No exception this time.

When I don't say anything about it, it doesn't mean that I don't know.

As much as I don't wanna care about the comments, it will definitely affect me. 

Still remember the days where I cried my heart out when no one in the club understand why I did certain stuff.

But...this time, I'll not cry.

At least, I'll will not before the project end.

Swallow all the sadness down hard, keep it in first

 and

 let it all out when everything end.

Pour everything out. Go to sleep. Tmr is another new day.

Goodnights.